today was terrific... stinkin' awesome... here's the rundown...
i woke up semi-early for a saturday morning... about 9:00 or so... got out of bed, stumbled into the living room (half-asleep), and played game boy and watched saturday morning cartoons... i love it when i actually get to do this... it's one of my favorite things... there's this great sense of community when all the boys are up and we're watching pokemon and kirby and whatever else is on - that's what we watched this morning... and that's so raven, i think, too... anyway... i sat in the living room until about 11:30 - i had heard rumors that there would be an outing to the pumpkin patch - which i like to call the punkin' patch... i've never been to a punkin' patch in my entire life... i know, being from arkansas, that's hard for people to believe... but i haven't... last year when everyone went, i had to work everytime... so this year, i got to go...
so i took a shower and got ready (when i say this - i mean, i threw on an old pair of jeans, an old t-shirt and a sweatshirt, threw on a hat over wet hair and threw on the oldest pair of tennis shoes i have - i've never gone to a punkin' patch, but i know better than to wear new tennis shoes and my favorite jeans - some of the people out there weren't as smart...
so the ground rules were - everything is paid for - the punkin' patch and lunch - not by me... i had to abide by these rules or i wasn't allowed to go... so we headed out - almost the whole family... micah had to work... so there were 8 of us... and we went to the first patch and they had a very poor showing... so we left there and went to the mega punkin' patch - it's the family friendly one with pumpkin launching and corn mazes and a petting zoo... we got there and we could each get a pumpkin - so we take off on this tractor into a field to go pick out the pumpkin we wanted... mine was definitely going to have to be a "calling" - i was looking for the punkin' that was calling my name... "robyn... here i am... pick me... pick me..." - and it was funny to watch the two youngest boys kick a pumpkin every now and then and say "robyn..." half through their lips - and then proclaim... "robyn, i think this one's calling your name..." so bethany and matthan and i took off together - it's rained a lot here lately, so it was pretty muddy... which made it fun to walk through the field... on the search for the perfect punkin', i slipped and almost fell in some tractor tracks... which was quite humorous... finally, i found it... my punkin'... round, not too big... but big enough to get at least 2 homemade punkin' pies out of... cindy makes the BEST punkin' pie i've ever eaten... living with them during the holidays this year will be a huge advantage!!! so, bethany, matthan and i loaded up our punkin's and headed back towards the place to catch the tractor back... so we get back to the place where i almost fell on the way out... and i stopped and even said out loud... "this is the place where i almost fell... i need to be careful..." - you probably know what's coming... i take a step over the first set of tracks and slip and fall... so i have a new name... muddy butt... but it's slurred together - so muddybutt is more accurate... which proved to be fun... and the younger boys figured... you're already muddy, a little more won't hurt... good times... we took a ton of pictures and laughed a whole lot... then we went to lunch and the good times continued...
bethany and i went to portland for me to develop film and shop while we were waiting... so we walked over to starbuck's - and i realized it's the most beautiful day - i love weather like today... the sun was shining, but it was cool, crisp... with leaves changing colors... the smells of fall - the colors of fall... with a pumpkin spice latte in hand - i couldn't have asked for a better day... but i have a ton of stuff to do tonight for school... that's the only drawback... but i'm thankful - an extra hour of sleep tonight since it's daylight savings time... so i guess that helps out with the trying to get a ton of stuff done...
and the pictures turned out great... maybe when amy's here, i'll add pictures to my blog - and then my laptop is getting fixed - i had to order a new hard drive... and once i get it up and running again, i can start putting pictures up all the time... :)...
i love the fall!!!
Oct 30, 2004
Oct 29, 2004
countdown...
todady it's official... there are...
3 months until my birthday...
63 days left in the year...
26 days left until thanksgiving...
56 days left until christmas...
46 days left until mom and louis get here...
4 days until amy gets here...
5 days until i start my new job...
so exciting... on that note... i'm going to go eat some lunch and then i have to go to work at michael's - for one of the last times... sunday might be my last day... i'm not sure how it's all going to go down...
3 months until my birthday...
63 days left in the year...
26 days left until thanksgiving...
56 days left until christmas...
46 days left until mom and louis get here...
4 days until amy gets here...
5 days until i start my new job...
so exciting... on that note... i'm going to go eat some lunch and then i have to go to work at michael's - for one of the last times... sunday might be my last day... i'm not sure how it's all going to go down...
Oct 28, 2004
mama this surely is a dream...
okay - so i haven't posted in a while... but here i am now... sitting down to write one of my happiest posts ever...
on monday/tuesday, i was offered and accepted the job as the graphic designer/production assistant for the northwest baptist convention... here's what it all means -
- i have a "career" - this is not a part-time job to get me through seminary - this will be full-time, benefits, the works - monday-friday 8:30-5:00 - type job - no nights, no weekends...
- about school - they are working around my school schedule this semester... next semester, i am taking several steps back - only taking 6 hours max - just on tuesdays... depending on if i can handle it... my boss is not advocating me taking time off... but i don't want to be unrealistic in what i can take on... oh - and i start next week!!!
- the northwest is home... officially - my life will have major consistency - and i'm thrilled at that...
- as far as the job goes - here are my responsibilities... i will be responsible for graphic design for the convention - basically anything that anyone needs - i'm their go-to... so if someone needs programs designed for a meeting, logos, business cards, letterheads, envelopes - all that stuff... along with helping out with production/layout of the monthly newspaper... i think center spread will be my baby each month... other than that, it's just stories with a couple of ads at the bottom... along with helping out with the web site - this is the part that really intimidates me... i don't know anything - the only experience i have is this blog, which is very basic... but it'll work out, i'm sure...
- i have put in notice at my other two jobs... this one job is more than adequate for me to quit both of my other jobs and still come out way ahead at the end of the month... which is a great feeling...
- this job is perfect... i love the people i am going to be working with already - it's in the same building where i go to school, so i'm already on a first-name basis with many of the people i will get to work with each day... it's a very laid-back type of atmosphere - although i'm sure it will get stressful close to deadline time...
- the northwest baptist convention (check out www.nwbaptist.org) is basically the network of all the southern baptist churches in washington, oregon and part of idaho... it's the equivalent (in the south) of a state convention (like the arkansas baptist state convention - absc)...
- what this means for me/ministry - i still have huge and high expectations for high 5 ministries... honestly, a regular-full-time job is what i've been praying for... so my goals are to 1) get involved with a team-led youth ministry with a church in the area... 2) build a network of youth workers, school officials, and youth... as well as anyone else who would be interested in high 5... 3) start preliminary (baby steps) work to build up a ministry without a building... whether it be at the school or a church... or somewhere else... 4) pray that others catch the vision for it - and hopefully, in 10 years, have a full-running youth center - with tutoring, video games, a gym, music rooms, drama rooms, computer labs, foosball, ping pong and pool tables, and hopefully living areas upstairs for the interns... :)... and in the mean time, i will still be working my regular 40-hour a week job and working with the youth at the church that God will show me in the next few months... so that's what i see... and hope expectantly for...
okay - so that's it for now... i'm kind of taking my last few days "off" to be a bum... wear jeans and sweatshirts and do nothing all day - these days are limited... but it'll be great on the other side of it, too...
Oct 23, 2004
points...
600 points to amy - for getting the right answer to the quote... and 100 points for tv show... by the way, i totally knew that's what you were going to put... i knew it...
marie - 100 points for tv show - and i also knew you were going to put that - i was trying to think of options - like multiple choice and i thought, "freaks and geeks - so amy... my so-called life - so marie..." - crazy huh??? i haven't seen amelie but i've heard it's awesome... i'll see it eventually...
chad - honorary 500 points for the quote - and 100 points for the tv show... only because i knew you would have known it - and because i'm feeling generous...
my answer - i'm thinking unsolved mysteries (i read that in your email, amy - i hated that show, too...) or the brady bunch or the partridge family - that's the way i feel at home... maybe seinfeld - a show about nothing... maybe that's what i'll stick with...
so current point values are as follows...
5200 points for amy
1600 points for chad
500 points for stacey
100 points for marie
marie - 100 points for tv show - and i also knew you were going to put that - i was trying to think of options - like multiple choice and i thought, "freaks and geeks - so amy... my so-called life - so marie..." - crazy huh??? i haven't seen amelie but i've heard it's awesome... i'll see it eventually...
chad - honorary 500 points for the quote - and 100 points for the tv show... only because i knew you would have known it - and because i'm feeling generous...
my answer - i'm thinking unsolved mysteries (i read that in your email, amy - i hated that show, too...) or the brady bunch or the partridge family - that's the way i feel at home... maybe seinfeld - a show about nothing... maybe that's what i'll stick with...
so current point values are as follows...
5200 points for amy
1600 points for chad
500 points for stacey
100 points for marie
it's now official...
so at one point in college, i had these three best friends... we all loved canadian bacon and pineapple pizza... two of the girls were roommates in an apartment - and the other one of them lived with them during the summers... one was my accountability partner, one worked with me and we had tons of fun together, and the other lived down the hall from me in the dorm and we spent many a late night hanging out... so i loved these girls... we "decorated" my brother's car one night - which remains to be one of my fondest memories from college... the entire car FULL of crumpled up newspaper - one of the girls' parents saved newspapers for us for weeks, maybe months... and shoe polished the windows... it was lovely... then, there were several occasions where any number of us would sit around and laugh and laugh and laugh... good times, right???
so, there was this one time - we all went out to eat at mcalister's (yum - one of my favorite places - but it's only in the south)... all of us were single at the time (two had boyfriends, i think) - and we were talking about what we thought the time length would be for us to date, marry and have kids... for example, lee ann would date for 5 years (she had already been dating for 3 or 4 at the time), get engaged and then get married 9 months later... anyway - so we made these "predictions" about how and when all of this would take place... (i guess you probably already know where this is going...) - so lee ann dated joseph for 5 years (i think... about), got engaged and got married last december (where i got to be a cranberry-red dress wearing bridesmaid)... and patti dated corky for about a year, got engaged a couple of weeks ago and is getting married in june (where i get to be a banana-yellow dress wearing bridesmaid)... and i just found out that kali, who has been dating nathan for a couple of years (or more, maybe) got engaged a couple of days ago and will be getting married sometime... we haven't really kept in touch all that well - i don't know if i'll even be invited to the wedding - but at least i don't have to wear some food-color bridesmaid dress again - the whole "always a bridesmaid, never a bride thing sucks...")
so, as i sat there in mcalister's that day - i never dreamed i would be the last one... never... i guess someone had to be the last one - but the reality hit home today in a squid in your face kind of way... and honestly, i wouldn't make different choices had i the choices to make over again... not a chance... i'd screw it up even more than i already have, i'm sure!!!
so, there was this one time - we all went out to eat at mcalister's (yum - one of my favorite places - but it's only in the south)... all of us were single at the time (two had boyfriends, i think) - and we were talking about what we thought the time length would be for us to date, marry and have kids... for example, lee ann would date for 5 years (she had already been dating for 3 or 4 at the time), get engaged and then get married 9 months later... anyway - so we made these "predictions" about how and when all of this would take place... (i guess you probably already know where this is going...) - so lee ann dated joseph for 5 years (i think... about), got engaged and got married last december (where i got to be a cranberry-red dress wearing bridesmaid)... and patti dated corky for about a year, got engaged a couple of weeks ago and is getting married in june (where i get to be a banana-yellow dress wearing bridesmaid)... and i just found out that kali, who has been dating nathan for a couple of years (or more, maybe) got engaged a couple of days ago and will be getting married sometime... we haven't really kept in touch all that well - i don't know if i'll even be invited to the wedding - but at least i don't have to wear some food-color bridesmaid dress again - the whole "always a bridesmaid, never a bride thing sucks...")
so, as i sat there in mcalister's that day - i never dreamed i would be the last one... never... i guess someone had to be the last one - but the reality hit home today in a squid in your face kind of way... and honestly, i wouldn't make different choices had i the choices to make over again... not a chance... i'd screw it up even more than i already have, i'm sure!!!
Oct 22, 2004
rqotd...
i don't have anything worthwhile to post - and i don't have a top 5 yet today... so... i'm going to post a random question of the day - and maybe, if you're lucky, a random quote of the day - fun how those both have the same initials...
Random Question of the Day: Anyone who answers gets 100 points... just for playing along...
if your life were a tv show, which tv show would it be?
Random Quote of the Day: 500 points...
This is not over. I'm not putting a period at the end of anything. I'm putting like... an ellipses on it.
(ellipses are (is it plural?) my favorite punctuation... )
Random Question of the Day: Anyone who answers gets 100 points... just for playing along...
if your life were a tv show, which tv show would it be?
Random Quote of the Day: 500 points...
This is not over. I'm not putting a period at the end of anything. I'm putting like... an ellipses on it.
(ellipses are (is it plural?) my favorite punctuation... )
Oct 21, 2004
my top five...
i don't have anything overly meaningful to blog about today... so i'm going to list my top 5 things to be happy about/thankful for today...
1) the red sox won - they're in... and the cardinals won... (and i actually got to see the cardinals win... now... if the cardinals can win game 7 - i'll be down with whoever wins the series...
2) i got a phone call from a friend from school and i have a quasi-meeting with him tomorrow about a job...
3) i got a lot of work done today at the library - so tomorrow should be easy-breezy...
4) only 13 days until amy comes to visit - and i got an email/comment from marie - and she wants to come visit (and we're thinking january) - which means a visitor in november, 2 in december (mom and louis) and one in january... who's coming in february?? :)
5) it's almost the end of the day... i'm about to not study for the midterms i have to take tomorrow... and go home and go to bed... which i think will be great for me!!!
1) the red sox won - they're in... and the cardinals won... (and i actually got to see the cardinals win... now... if the cardinals can win game 7 - i'll be down with whoever wins the series...
2) i got a phone call from a friend from school and i have a quasi-meeting with him tomorrow about a job...
3) i got a lot of work done today at the library - so tomorrow should be easy-breezy...
4) only 13 days until amy comes to visit - and i got an email/comment from marie - and she wants to come visit (and we're thinking january) - which means a visitor in november, 2 in december (mom and louis) and one in january... who's coming in february?? :)
5) it's almost the end of the day... i'm about to not study for the midterms i have to take tomorrow... and go home and go to bed... which i think will be great for me!!!
Oct 19, 2004
visitors...
okay... so i'm totally excited!!!!
amy is coming to visit in two weeks!!!! "two weeks... hooray hooray..." - that's a movie quote, by the way...
and...
my mom and brother are coming to visit in deceber (about a month and two weeks)... hooray!!!
my cup runneth over...
they will be the first people from "home" to see what my life is like here... and that brings me a ton of encouragement... and a lot of excitement... (exciting is the most overused descriptive word, by the way - but this is actually really exciting...)
okay, so i need to start working... but YEA!!!!
amy is coming to visit in two weeks!!!! "two weeks... hooray hooray..." - that's a movie quote, by the way...
and...
my mom and brother are coming to visit in deceber (about a month and two weeks)... hooray!!!
my cup runneth over...
they will be the first people from "home" to see what my life is like here... and that brings me a ton of encouragement... and a lot of excitement... (exciting is the most overused descriptive word, by the way - but this is actually really exciting...)
okay, so i need to start working... but YEA!!!!
Oct 18, 2004
"i can't figure it all out tonight, sir, so i'm just gonna hang with your daughter" or welcome to my life or i go to seminary, not community college.
so i have been given a hard time by a couple of people about not posting anything lately... whatever... so i decided to sit down and write tonight... so here it is... beware - it's long and involving...
okay, so last week at school, i was already kind of feeling behind... i heard in college (thanks arliss), that the habits you keep during the first three weeks of school determine how the entire school year will go... knowing this, i did what any normal seminary student would do... didn't practice the best study habits and procrastinated even on the earliest easiest assignments... (i did really well the first week... and then... well...)
so it's kind of caught up with me a bit, and now it's (past) mid-october, and things are getting crazier... i picked up this second job at the library at school, thinking it would balance my hours out, and my income would be a bit more consistent... and somehow THE MAN knows... meaning, my manager at my other job - i don't know how - she has a way of picking the worst hours for me - and piling them on during the wrong weeks... i have my own theories about this, which will remain silent for now...
so... the last couple of weeks, i've worked about 30 hours... sometimes 25 - sometimes 32... somewhere in there... but the way my availability is set up, the hours are way more demanding... here's what happened last week... i had school on monday/tuesday... then i worked 8 hours on wednesday (2pm - 1030pm)... when i got to work on wednesday, i realized i had been scheduled for thursday (8 more hours)... then i was scheduled for friday (8 more hours) and saturday, i was originally scheduled for 5, but covered for another girl (8 hours)... then the schedule for this week was up - sunday (8 more hours)... so altogether, i worked 40 hours at one job from wednesday to sunday... then i had a few library hours here and there... i realize 40 hours in 5 days is not a big deal... i realize that most americans keep this schedule on a very regular basis... my problem is 1) not being used to that many hours in that many days, 2) being in graduate school, 3) having a second job, 4) not being aware of extra hours added on... 5) the hours of my job - usually 2-1030 or 11...
there's more... i was so tired of being at work yesterday, i was pretty much dragging... with a bad attitude... i didn't want to be there... wanted to go home... didn't want to think about the homework that was looming overhead... and my framing manager says to me... "but you have tomorrow off..." what? are you kidding me??? i looked at her and said, "do you realize i'm in graduate school, not community college? i have 9 hours of class tomorrow, along with 3 hours of work at my other job, 2 midterms this week and a paper due???" and then i had to go on to explain to her the difference between graduate school and community college... (nothing against people in community colleges...)
so, i was already kind of frustrated, worn out last night... i came up to my office to work on my paper, and after wrestling with it for a while, i decided to drop that class... i don't really like it anyway, and i thought i'd be a lot better off... so, paper unwritten, i headed home and went to bed... i got to school this morning and told the secretary that i wanted to drop a class, and she informs me that it's too late to drop a class, and that i can't drop without failing... bad idea... so i don't have an option... i also don't have a paper...
at this point, i'm really frustrated, extremely exhausted (not sleepy, just weary), and highly emotional... i went to my first class (pastoral counseling) and didn't make it too long before i was crying... not just a tear here and there... crying... i hate crying at school... most of the people i go to school with are men... (i almost typed, "most of the guys i go to school with are male." - i said that once at work, and then, realizing what i was saying, had to laugh) i have decided that there are few other things that can make a man more uncomfortable than seeing a woman cry... especially when 1) the guys don't know what's wrong or can't fix it... or 2) when the woman can't explain it... and i hate putting guys in that position... so... someone asked me what was wrong, and i said something about 40 hours and began to explain about my weekend and he just said, "you'll get no violins from me..." - and he was making a joke... but it really kind of hurt my feelings... we ended up talking about it... and it's all good now... poor guy - more about this - i'll get back to it in a second...
the reason i think i was crying in class is because all of my classes are about ministry - and we talk about using principles learned in class in our ministry setting - and i don't really have one - so it leaves me sitting there thinking, "why am i in seminary? what am i doing?" and it makes me want to drop out and run away...
so i called amy and just started crying all over again... like i was trying to be all normal... and then i lost it... just lost it... and amy's great to listen to me vent... no - she doesn't always have the answers... i never do, either... but sometimes there aren't any answers... maybe sometimes all that we can offer are ears... and amy's good to lend ears and shoulders - and friendship... okay - this is what just came to my mind - the scene from forrest gump where forrest takes jenny to her old house and she's throwing rocks at the house... "sometimes there just aren't enough rocks..." - anyway - no real point - but what a great scene... random...
and then i got a random phone call in the middle of the day that made me smile... definitely took my mind off the crap at school... :)...
anyway - so i was talking to this guy jason at school... and this is probably the heart of the matter... in talking with jason - after talking to the other guy (violin guy) - i realized i don't really have a support system in the northwest... what gets me is most of the people at school have spouses... so yes, they wear a ton of hats... they work 40 hours a week, have full-time ministry, and whatever... i'm sure they do more than me... here's the difference... they have a support system - if nothing else, they have a spouse - a partner in the journey... someone who understands at least a little what they're going through - someone who they can be real with and share everything with and vent to... a partner... i don't... i don't even have a church, currently... so my support system here is pretty much nonexistent to me... and that's why i think i'm getting so worn out... i feel alone in the journey - i don't like the way that feels... and i don't think my friends back home understand... i talked to one of my friends last night... and she said, "but robyn, you're having so much fun... you have tons of friends..." - too bad it's not like college - i don't have a ton of friends... i'm not having "so much fun..." i mean, i do have fun - i create my own fun, most of the time... but i'm not really all that happy... okay, i should quit whining about it... this is just how i feel...
okay, so last week at school, i was already kind of feeling behind... i heard in college (thanks arliss), that the habits you keep during the first three weeks of school determine how the entire school year will go... knowing this, i did what any normal seminary student would do... didn't practice the best study habits and procrastinated even on the earliest easiest assignments... (i did really well the first week... and then... well...)
so it's kind of caught up with me a bit, and now it's (past) mid-october, and things are getting crazier... i picked up this second job at the library at school, thinking it would balance my hours out, and my income would be a bit more consistent... and somehow THE MAN knows... meaning, my manager at my other job - i don't know how - she has a way of picking the worst hours for me - and piling them on during the wrong weeks... i have my own theories about this, which will remain silent for now...
so... the last couple of weeks, i've worked about 30 hours... sometimes 25 - sometimes 32... somewhere in there... but the way my availability is set up, the hours are way more demanding... here's what happened last week... i had school on monday/tuesday... then i worked 8 hours on wednesday (2pm - 1030pm)... when i got to work on wednesday, i realized i had been scheduled for thursday (8 more hours)... then i was scheduled for friday (8 more hours) and saturday, i was originally scheduled for 5, but covered for another girl (8 hours)... then the schedule for this week was up - sunday (8 more hours)... so altogether, i worked 40 hours at one job from wednesday to sunday... then i had a few library hours here and there... i realize 40 hours in 5 days is not a big deal... i realize that most americans keep this schedule on a very regular basis... my problem is 1) not being used to that many hours in that many days, 2) being in graduate school, 3) having a second job, 4) not being aware of extra hours added on... 5) the hours of my job - usually 2-1030 or 11...
there's more... i was so tired of being at work yesterday, i was pretty much dragging... with a bad attitude... i didn't want to be there... wanted to go home... didn't want to think about the homework that was looming overhead... and my framing manager says to me... "but you have tomorrow off..." what? are you kidding me??? i looked at her and said, "do you realize i'm in graduate school, not community college? i have 9 hours of class tomorrow, along with 3 hours of work at my other job, 2 midterms this week and a paper due???" and then i had to go on to explain to her the difference between graduate school and community college... (nothing against people in community colleges...)
so, i was already kind of frustrated, worn out last night... i came up to my office to work on my paper, and after wrestling with it for a while, i decided to drop that class... i don't really like it anyway, and i thought i'd be a lot better off... so, paper unwritten, i headed home and went to bed... i got to school this morning and told the secretary that i wanted to drop a class, and she informs me that it's too late to drop a class, and that i can't drop without failing... bad idea... so i don't have an option... i also don't have a paper...
at this point, i'm really frustrated, extremely exhausted (not sleepy, just weary), and highly emotional... i went to my first class (pastoral counseling) and didn't make it too long before i was crying... not just a tear here and there... crying... i hate crying at school... most of the people i go to school with are men... (i almost typed, "most of the guys i go to school with are male." - i said that once at work, and then, realizing what i was saying, had to laugh) i have decided that there are few other things that can make a man more uncomfortable than seeing a woman cry... especially when 1) the guys don't know what's wrong or can't fix it... or 2) when the woman can't explain it... and i hate putting guys in that position... so... someone asked me what was wrong, and i said something about 40 hours and began to explain about my weekend and he just said, "you'll get no violins from me..." - and he was making a joke... but it really kind of hurt my feelings... we ended up talking about it... and it's all good now... poor guy - more about this - i'll get back to it in a second...
the reason i think i was crying in class is because all of my classes are about ministry - and we talk about using principles learned in class in our ministry setting - and i don't really have one - so it leaves me sitting there thinking, "why am i in seminary? what am i doing?" and it makes me want to drop out and run away...
so i called amy and just started crying all over again... like i was trying to be all normal... and then i lost it... just lost it... and amy's great to listen to me vent... no - she doesn't always have the answers... i never do, either... but sometimes there aren't any answers... maybe sometimes all that we can offer are ears... and amy's good to lend ears and shoulders - and friendship... okay - this is what just came to my mind - the scene from forrest gump where forrest takes jenny to her old house and she's throwing rocks at the house... "sometimes there just aren't enough rocks..." - anyway - no real point - but what a great scene... random...
and then i got a random phone call in the middle of the day that made me smile... definitely took my mind off the crap at school... :)...
anyway - so i was talking to this guy jason at school... and this is probably the heart of the matter... in talking with jason - after talking to the other guy (violin guy) - i realized i don't really have a support system in the northwest... what gets me is most of the people at school have spouses... so yes, they wear a ton of hats... they work 40 hours a week, have full-time ministry, and whatever... i'm sure they do more than me... here's the difference... they have a support system - if nothing else, they have a spouse - a partner in the journey... someone who understands at least a little what they're going through - someone who they can be real with and share everything with and vent to... a partner... i don't... i don't even have a church, currently... so my support system here is pretty much nonexistent to me... and that's why i think i'm getting so worn out... i feel alone in the journey - i don't like the way that feels... and i don't think my friends back home understand... i talked to one of my friends last night... and she said, "but robyn, you're having so much fun... you have tons of friends..." - too bad it's not like college - i don't have a ton of friends... i'm not having "so much fun..." i mean, i do have fun - i create my own fun, most of the time... but i'm not really all that happy... okay, i should quit whining about it... this is just how i feel...
procrastination...
i think it might actually be my middle name... okay, so it's not - but i practice it often... i'm supposed to be working on a book review, but when i found out it was not to exceed 5 pages, i thought, "five pages... that's nothing... i'll do it in a minute..." in the mean time, i've found out a few things...
boston is up 6-4 in the bottom of the 12th... thanks, espn.com - i'm excited that the red sox pulled this one out... the screen just reloaded - it's official...
i have the same birthday as the following people... there are others, but these are the most exciting to me... i already knew about oprah...
jason james richter - the star of the free willy movies and never ending story III - we have the exact same birthday - same year... (that's why he's first)
andrew keegan
sara gilbert
heather graham
edward burns
greg louganis
oprah winfrey
ann jillian
tom selleck
w.c. fields
and the following people got married on my birthday (not to each other)...
christian bale (side note - his birthday is the day after mine)
stevie nicks
paul newman
i'm thinking (right now) about dropping my preaching class... i'm a little bit behind... i've missed the last two assignments for my sermon preparation - and i don't have a date lined up to preach outside of class - and the book review i'm supposed to be working on is for that class... and i don't think the semester will get any better - it's my monday night class, so it tends to get the least amount of attention - plus i don't really like the class... but i've made it through two months - two to go... if i drop it, i'll still be full time, and it won't cause me to graduate any later... (have i already talked myself into dropping it??) hmmm.... we'll see...
for now, i'm going to go home and go to bed... i'll take the book with me and decide at home...
boston is up 6-4 in the bottom of the 12th... thanks, espn.com - i'm excited that the red sox pulled this one out... the screen just reloaded - it's official...
i have the same birthday as the following people... there are others, but these are the most exciting to me... i already knew about oprah...
jason james richter - the star of the free willy movies and never ending story III - we have the exact same birthday - same year... (that's why he's first)
andrew keegan
sara gilbert
heather graham
edward burns
greg louganis
oprah winfrey
ann jillian
tom selleck
w.c. fields
and the following people got married on my birthday (not to each other)...
christian bale (side note - his birthday is the day after mine)
stevie nicks
paul newman
i'm thinking (right now) about dropping my preaching class... i'm a little bit behind... i've missed the last two assignments for my sermon preparation - and i don't have a date lined up to preach outside of class - and the book review i'm supposed to be working on is for that class... and i don't think the semester will get any better - it's my monday night class, so it tends to get the least amount of attention - plus i don't really like the class... but i've made it through two months - two to go... if i drop it, i'll still be full time, and it won't cause me to graduate any later... (have i already talked myself into dropping it??) hmmm.... we'll see...
for now, i'm going to go home and go to bed... i'll take the book with me and decide at home...
Oct 8, 2004
recent movie quote point tally...
2600 points for amy
1000 points for chad
500 points for stacey
there are 1500 points available... these are the quotes, each worth 500 points...
"Why does every want to go away? I love being home. But I don't like being left behind. Now I am the one going ahead. I am not afraid. I can be brave like you. But I know I shall be homesick for you, even in heaven."
"Bert: Uncle Albert, I got a jolly joke for just such an occasion. Would you like to hear it?Uncle Albert: I'd be so grateful.Bert: Well it's about me granddad, see, and one night he has a nightmare. So bad, he chewed his pillow to bits. Bits. In the morning, I says, "How you feeling, Granddad?" He says, "Oh not bad, a little down in the mouth".[They laugh]Bert: I always say there's nothing like a good joke.Uncle Albert: And that was nothing like a good joke.
1 - "i love you a million swedish fish...2 - i love you a million red m&m's"
if these three don't have answers by 10/31 - i'll tell the answers and i get the points!!! (but don't cheat!!)
and i will throw a new one in for today... there are two quotes... same movie - total points available for both - 500 points... (i just couldn't decide which i'd rather post...)
"Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion. "
"I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special."
1000 points for chad
500 points for stacey
there are 1500 points available... these are the quotes, each worth 500 points...
"Why does every want to go away? I love being home. But I don't like being left behind. Now I am the one going ahead. I am not afraid. I can be brave like you. But I know I shall be homesick for you, even in heaven."
"Bert: Uncle Albert, I got a jolly joke for just such an occasion. Would you like to hear it?Uncle Albert: I'd be so grateful.Bert: Well it's about me granddad, see, and one night he has a nightmare. So bad, he chewed his pillow to bits. Bits. In the morning, I says, "How you feeling, Granddad?" He says, "Oh not bad, a little down in the mouth".[They laugh]Bert: I always say there's nothing like a good joke.Uncle Albert: And that was nothing like a good joke.
1 - "i love you a million swedish fish...2 - i love you a million red m&m's"
if these three don't have answers by 10/31 - i'll tell the answers and i get the points!!! (but don't cheat!!)
and i will throw a new one in for today... there are two quotes... same movie - total points available for both - 500 points... (i just couldn't decide which i'd rather post...)
"Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion. "
"I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special."
the view from my office...
i just opened the blinds in the window in my office... and it's lovely outside... the sun is not shining... but there are clouds and a light, misty rain... when i moved to the northwest last year, i was worried about being depressed because of all of the rain... i worried about never seeing the sun shine...
that hasn't been the case... i do love sunshine... i do love warm sunny days... but this weather is wonderful... the rainy days definitely make me want to stay home, read a book, and curl up under a blanket... it just seems mellow... and i love that... a low-maintenance kind of day...
from my window, i can also see a gigantic spider spinning a web... i don't love spiders... and i don't like it when they're big... but the way they work to spin a web is amazing to me... i'm fascinated by it... and it made me think of a story by robert fulghum in his book, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten. it's a great story... if i had the time or space (or didn't feel i'd get accused of writing a novel on my blog), i'd write it out... but i'm not going to... i do remember reading the book in the 6th grade... we were supposed to do an oral book report... and that's the book i chose... i loved it... not that i got it the same way i'd get it now if i re-read it... which i'm going to do - it was in the stack of book sale books i got for free... but it made me think in ways that i hadn't thought before... have we ever thought about life from the perspective of a spider?? have i taken the time to do that before?? i guess the reason i identify so much with fulghum is the way he writes - almost as if they're little blog entries...
okay - and in the mean time - of writing all that, going and finding the book off the shelf in the library, reading the story, contemplating writing it all out... writing part of it, erasing it... and finishing up my thoughts - during all of that it started pouring... and you know that song (it's even referenced in the story) - the eensy weensy spider went up the water spout... down came the rain and washed the spider out... out came the sun and dried up all the rain, and the eensy weensy spider went up the spout again... well, this not-so eensy-weensy spider was defintely taken aback by the heavy rain - maybe not out, but he was clinging to this plant - the rain died off... and now, i can see him, sitting on the branch, and i think he's contemplating... do i start again? is the rain going to come and take me out again? and i see his legs moving and i know that he's going to start again... and i pray for that kind of determination... regardless of the storms... in the midst of trial... the ability to start again after i feel defeated... he's on the move... there he goes... go spider go!!!
that hasn't been the case... i do love sunshine... i do love warm sunny days... but this weather is wonderful... the rainy days definitely make me want to stay home, read a book, and curl up under a blanket... it just seems mellow... and i love that... a low-maintenance kind of day...
from my window, i can also see a gigantic spider spinning a web... i don't love spiders... and i don't like it when they're big... but the way they work to spin a web is amazing to me... i'm fascinated by it... and it made me think of a story by robert fulghum in his book, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten. it's a great story... if i had the time or space (or didn't feel i'd get accused of writing a novel on my blog), i'd write it out... but i'm not going to... i do remember reading the book in the 6th grade... we were supposed to do an oral book report... and that's the book i chose... i loved it... not that i got it the same way i'd get it now if i re-read it... which i'm going to do - it was in the stack of book sale books i got for free... but it made me think in ways that i hadn't thought before... have we ever thought about life from the perspective of a spider?? have i taken the time to do that before?? i guess the reason i identify so much with fulghum is the way he writes - almost as if they're little blog entries...
okay - and in the mean time - of writing all that, going and finding the book off the shelf in the library, reading the story, contemplating writing it all out... writing part of it, erasing it... and finishing up my thoughts - during all of that it started pouring... and you know that song (it's even referenced in the story) - the eensy weensy spider went up the water spout... down came the rain and washed the spider out... out came the sun and dried up all the rain, and the eensy weensy spider went up the spout again... well, this not-so eensy-weensy spider was defintely taken aback by the heavy rain - maybe not out, but he was clinging to this plant - the rain died off... and now, i can see him, sitting on the branch, and i think he's contemplating... do i start again? is the rain going to come and take me out again? and i see his legs moving and i know that he's going to start again... and i pray for that kind of determination... regardless of the storms... in the midst of trial... the ability to start again after i feel defeated... he's on the move... there he goes... go spider go!!!
Oct 7, 2004
joaquin phoenix...
i saw the village in the theater - and then there was a preview for ladder 49 (which i want to see) and then i ended up watching signs last weekend... AND... joaquin phoenix has been on talk shows... i keep seeing his face - everywhere i look - and it's forced me to find out more... so i've done a bit of searching (not obsessively - just on one site - my favorite one, i might add) and here are some things i've found out about joaquin...
... he's 5'8" - surprising to me, but it's all good...
... his birthday is october 28 - born in 1974... in san juan, puerto rico...
... his birth name is Joaquin Raphael Phoenix... for a while (from when he was 4 until the early '90's), he changed his name to "Leaf" to match the earthier names of his older siblings, river and rain... and his younger siblings are liberty and summer (coincidently the names of the two girls who lived across the street from me growing up were summer and liberty... weird...)
... his parents were Church of God missionaries...
... they were all strict vegans and the kids were not allowed to be in commercials for meat, junk food, or milk...
... joaquin (as leaf)'s screen debut was on the film space camp (one of my FAVORITE movies growing up) in 1986 as max... and i bought it today on dvd for $7.50 at walmart... YEA!!!
... he dropped out of the public eye for a while and went to mexico with his dad (his parents were in the midst of separation)
... in 1993, he "returned to the public eye under tragic circumstances"... he was at the viper room when river collapsed from an overdose and joaquin actually made the call to 911...
... he met liv tyler on the set of inventing the abbotts and they dated for almost 3 years...
... his sister summer is married to casey affleck (ben's brother) and they have one child named Indiana August Affleck...
... because of his vegan-ness, he won't wear costumes made from animal skin and he once wouldn't wear shoes in a prada photo shoot because they were made of leather...
so there are a few fun facts about joaquin phoenix... i know... random... but haven't you come to expect it from me??? don't worry - joaquin isn't taking the place of john cusack for my favorite actor... but he may be getting up there on the list!!!
... he's 5'8" - surprising to me, but it's all good...
... his birthday is october 28 - born in 1974... in san juan, puerto rico...
... his birth name is Joaquin Raphael Phoenix... for a while (from when he was 4 until the early '90's), he changed his name to "Leaf" to match the earthier names of his older siblings, river and rain... and his younger siblings are liberty and summer (coincidently the names of the two girls who lived across the street from me growing up were summer and liberty... weird...)
... his parents were Church of God missionaries...
... they were all strict vegans and the kids were not allowed to be in commercials for meat, junk food, or milk...
... joaquin (as leaf)'s screen debut was on the film space camp (one of my FAVORITE movies growing up) in 1986 as max... and i bought it today on dvd for $7.50 at walmart... YEA!!!
... he dropped out of the public eye for a while and went to mexico with his dad (his parents were in the midst of separation)
... in 1993, he "returned to the public eye under tragic circumstances"... he was at the viper room when river collapsed from an overdose and joaquin actually made the call to 911...
... he met liv tyler on the set of inventing the abbotts and they dated for almost 3 years...
... his sister summer is married to casey affleck (ben's brother) and they have one child named Indiana August Affleck...
... because of his vegan-ness, he won't wear costumes made from animal skin and he once wouldn't wear shoes in a prada photo shoot because they were made of leather...
so there are a few fun facts about joaquin phoenix... i know... random... but haven't you come to expect it from me??? don't worry - joaquin isn't taking the place of john cusack for my favorite actor... but he may be getting up there on the list!!!
5 things...10/6/04
i don't know what else to write about today, but i wanted to write something... and i thought it was a great time for 5 things to be happy about or thankful for today...
1. we got a whole lot of gift books in today at the library, and in a second before i go home, i get to look through them and take the ones i want for free... and i love books!!!
2. i have good relationships with a lot of my coworkers at michael's... and it makes me happy - i like that i have had the same job for over a year - and i like the camaraderie that i feel with my coworkers...
3. today when i got to the library to work, i saw the gift books and then i saw two of my professors, who got to go through them first... and it was seriously like watching kids in a candy store - or even better, kids at christmas time!!! they were so cute - so excited... grown men... giddy about books!
4. i rediscovered a waterdeep cd and a watermark cd yesterday - and they totally met me where i have been... and it's a great feeling... i love music!!!
5. i am so thankful for amy... i am thankful that she likes movies and tv shows and "stuff" as much as me - if not more... it's this great friendship that i'm thankful for on a really regular basis - but especially today as we talked about freaks and geeks - and we love the same characters... and yeah... it's great... everyone should have a friend like that...
it's been a good day - filled with lots of work... and now, that it's almost 2 a.m., i'm going to go home and go to bed!!!
movie quote of the day... 500 points...
"felt wrong not to swing."
1. we got a whole lot of gift books in today at the library, and in a second before i go home, i get to look through them and take the ones i want for free... and i love books!!!
2. i have good relationships with a lot of my coworkers at michael's... and it makes me happy - i like that i have had the same job for over a year - and i like the camaraderie that i feel with my coworkers...
3. today when i got to the library to work, i saw the gift books and then i saw two of my professors, who got to go through them first... and it was seriously like watching kids in a candy store - or even better, kids at christmas time!!! they were so cute - so excited... grown men... giddy about books!
4. i rediscovered a waterdeep cd and a watermark cd yesterday - and they totally met me where i have been... and it's a great feeling... i love music!!!
5. i am so thankful for amy... i am thankful that she likes movies and tv shows and "stuff" as much as me - if not more... it's this great friendship that i'm thankful for on a really regular basis - but especially today as we talked about freaks and geeks - and we love the same characters... and yeah... it's great... everyone should have a friend like that...
it's been a good day - filled with lots of work... and now, that it's almost 2 a.m., i'm going to go home and go to bed!!!
movie quote of the day... 500 points...
"felt wrong not to swing."
Oct 6, 2004
quote of the day...
while looking through all of my belongings (about 10 boxes), i came across a list of quotes i had copied down sometime last year. i honestly can't remember from where i copied them... but when i opened the pages, i saw words that have deep meaning... so i decided i'd post one of them tonight... and maybe randomly throughout the next few days, weeks, months, i'll post others as they jump out at me...
"No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the stars, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven [doorway, in some versions] to the human spirit." - Helen Keller
"No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the stars, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven [doorway, in some versions] to the human spirit." - Helen Keller
Oct 4, 2004
mars and venus...
okay, so i'm really starting to believe that men and women speak different languages... let me put a different twist on it... sometimes, i think men have no idea what they're saying and how it comes across to women... i'm sure the opposite is true, but i'd have to take a man's word for it, considering i'm not a guy...
3 stories to illustrate... these are all related to school... translation - these are men who are in ministry talking... the names have been concealed to protect the innocent... er... to protect those involved anyway... (if you're one of the people involved, i'm sorry... but i was overwhelmed with it today and wanted to blog about it - but i didn't use names!!)
1) a friend of mine (girl) was in class and the professor was talking about giving an invitation and was talking about personal space issues... then he went on to talk about a lady during an invitation one time who was emotional and as she was coming down front, she was gaining speed and almost knocked him over - and he looked at my friend and said, "well, she'd have been no taller than you... but she was petite..." what? are you kidding me?? when she told me, i cried with her... not that this particular professor was trying to be insensitive at all... he probably had no idea what he had said... and it probably didn't phase the rest of the class (which happened to be made up of only guys and my friend)...
2) today i woke up feeling bad and was relieved that my first class was cancelled... i went and got my haircut and bought a book - and got back to school and walked in the student center... someone asked how i was feeling, and i said, "much better" and a guy friend was sitting there and said, "well, i wouldn't really be able to tell by looking at you..." what? are you kidding me?? he said he was joking - and i'm sure he was... but still...
3) right after #2 story happened, a friend asked me the definition of a word... and i told him to look it up in the dictionary or on dictionary.com (one of my favorite websites)... and then i said... "ooh, here's a movie quote"... and i gave the quote (amy, i'm sure you know which one - as it relates to a dictionary)... none of the guys knew it... and i gave them a clue - it has my favorite actor in it... and then it started a discussion about actors and actresses and movies... (which are some of my favorite topics to discuss)... i was asking if they had seen certain movies and saying random knowledge about john and joan cusack and their dad and jeremy piven... and one of the guys looks at me and says, "do you study? work? how do you know all this stuff? how do you have time to watch so many movies?" and another guy looks at him and says, "she's single." i tried to laugh it off, but it really hurt my feelings... am i single because i love movies and have time to know all this stuff (amy, are we screwed?) or do i love movies and know all this stuff because i'm single? i confronted him about it later - and he said it's not what he meant... and we talked about it... and i know him well enough to know that is not what he meant... so it's fine... but it doesn't change the fact that in that instant, it hurt... just like it had hurt when someone said they couldn't tell if i was sick or not by my face... and just like it hurt my friend when the guy said in so many words, "you're fat..."
there's a particular comment i hear a lot... "i only pick on you because i care about you..." i can understand - i know that i do that sometimes, too... but seriously, what kind of logic is that? "i care about you, so i'll pick on you and hurt your feelings and expose things that aren't comfortable in your life and make you vulnerable to the point of discomfort in order to show you that i care... and i'm just kidding, anyway..." but then if i bring it up, it makes the person feel bad for picking on me, and they walk on egg shells in order to not say something that might hurt my feelings and they're not their true self... so i guess it's a vicious cycle with no end... and in all actuality, i'd rather have the picking than no interaction at all... like i said... no end...
and i feel like i've stereotyped all guys into one category - and that's not what i'm trying to do at all... i just think that sometimes, in our communication, especially with members of the opposite sex, things get miscommunicated or misunderstood... and that can be very hurtful if not handled or taken in the right manner... as long as i understand that most of the males in my life pick on me, i can (most of the time) be okay with it and take it in stride... and understand that it's part of our relationship whether i like it or not... okay so i'm probably rambling, so i'll stop now... but i'm open to comments on the subject... from both perspectives...
and for the record, i referenced two quotes - both said by john cusack - in this blog entry...
"boy this is a mother dictionary" and...
"did i listen to pop music because i was miserable or was i miserable because i listened to pop music?"
i know this because i'm single... :) (just kidding!!)
3 stories to illustrate... these are all related to school... translation - these are men who are in ministry talking... the names have been concealed to protect the innocent... er... to protect those involved anyway... (if you're one of the people involved, i'm sorry... but i was overwhelmed with it today and wanted to blog about it - but i didn't use names!!)
1) a friend of mine (girl) was in class and the professor was talking about giving an invitation and was talking about personal space issues... then he went on to talk about a lady during an invitation one time who was emotional and as she was coming down front, she was gaining speed and almost knocked him over - and he looked at my friend and said, "well, she'd have been no taller than you... but she was petite..." what? are you kidding me?? when she told me, i cried with her... not that this particular professor was trying to be insensitive at all... he probably had no idea what he had said... and it probably didn't phase the rest of the class (which happened to be made up of only guys and my friend)...
2) today i woke up feeling bad and was relieved that my first class was cancelled... i went and got my haircut and bought a book - and got back to school and walked in the student center... someone asked how i was feeling, and i said, "much better" and a guy friend was sitting there and said, "well, i wouldn't really be able to tell by looking at you..." what? are you kidding me?? he said he was joking - and i'm sure he was... but still...
3) right after #2 story happened, a friend asked me the definition of a word... and i told him to look it up in the dictionary or on dictionary.com (one of my favorite websites)... and then i said... "ooh, here's a movie quote"... and i gave the quote (amy, i'm sure you know which one - as it relates to a dictionary)... none of the guys knew it... and i gave them a clue - it has my favorite actor in it... and then it started a discussion about actors and actresses and movies... (which are some of my favorite topics to discuss)... i was asking if they had seen certain movies and saying random knowledge about john and joan cusack and their dad and jeremy piven... and one of the guys looks at me and says, "do you study? work? how do you know all this stuff? how do you have time to watch so many movies?" and another guy looks at him and says, "she's single." i tried to laugh it off, but it really hurt my feelings... am i single because i love movies and have time to know all this stuff (amy, are we screwed?) or do i love movies and know all this stuff because i'm single? i confronted him about it later - and he said it's not what he meant... and we talked about it... and i know him well enough to know that is not what he meant... so it's fine... but it doesn't change the fact that in that instant, it hurt... just like it had hurt when someone said they couldn't tell if i was sick or not by my face... and just like it hurt my friend when the guy said in so many words, "you're fat..."
there's a particular comment i hear a lot... "i only pick on you because i care about you..." i can understand - i know that i do that sometimes, too... but seriously, what kind of logic is that? "i care about you, so i'll pick on you and hurt your feelings and expose things that aren't comfortable in your life and make you vulnerable to the point of discomfort in order to show you that i care... and i'm just kidding, anyway..." but then if i bring it up, it makes the person feel bad for picking on me, and they walk on egg shells in order to not say something that might hurt my feelings and they're not their true self... so i guess it's a vicious cycle with no end... and in all actuality, i'd rather have the picking than no interaction at all... like i said... no end...
and i feel like i've stereotyped all guys into one category - and that's not what i'm trying to do at all... i just think that sometimes, in our communication, especially with members of the opposite sex, things get miscommunicated or misunderstood... and that can be very hurtful if not handled or taken in the right manner... as long as i understand that most of the males in my life pick on me, i can (most of the time) be okay with it and take it in stride... and understand that it's part of our relationship whether i like it or not... okay so i'm probably rambling, so i'll stop now... but i'm open to comments on the subject... from both perspectives...
and for the record, i referenced two quotes - both said by john cusack - in this blog entry...
"boy this is a mother dictionary" and...
"did i listen to pop music because i was miserable or was i miserable because i listened to pop music?"
i know this because i'm single... :) (just kidding!!)
strengths...
i'm taking a leadership class this semester... one of the requirements for the class is to read the book, Now, Discover Your Strengths by Marcus Buckingham and Donald Clifton... the subtitle is "The revolutionary program that show you how to develop your unique talents and strengths - and those of the people you manage." - it's based on a gallup study... and basically, it breaks down the strengths of the entire human population into 34 strengths... and whoever buys the book (with the special code on the inside cover) can go to their website, take the test and it will spit out the top 5 strengths...
the 34 strengths are as follows:
achiever activator adaptability analytical arranger belief command communication competition connectedness context deliberative developer discipline empathy fairness focus futuristic harmony ideation inclusiveness individualization input intellection learner maximizer positivity relator responsibility restorative self-assurance significance strategic woo
so today i took the test and these are the five that were spit at me... i think they're in ranked order...
MY SIGNATURE THEMES:
Adaptability: People strong in the Adaptability theme prefer to "go with the flow." They tend to be "now" people who take things as they come and discover the future one day at a time.
Woo: People strong in the Woo theme love the challenge of meeting new people and winning them over. They derive satisfaction from breaking the ice and making a connection with another person.
Empathy: People strong in the Empathy theme can sense the feelings of other people by imagining themselves in others' lives or others' situations.
Positivity: People strong in the Positivity theme have an enthusiasm that is contagious. They are upbeat and can get others excited about what they are going to do.
Communication: People strong in the Communication theme generally find it easy to put their thoughts into words. They are good conversationalists and presenters.
personally, i'm really excited that one of my themes is "woo"... woo hoo!!!
i kind of had to laugh... we've been talking about empathy a lot in pastoral counseling... and i'd pretty much decided i am the most un-empathetic person in the whole world... AND... the positivity thing also made me laugh... sometimes i feel SO negative... but... (which means everything before that was negated...) when two of my friends from school saw the list, they pointed to those two characteristics and said, "that is so you... i can totally see that..." which made me really happy... sometimes i think i don't see what others can see... (and maybe sometimes i see stuff that isn't there?)
the 34 strengths are as follows:
achiever activator adaptability analytical arranger belief command communication competition connectedness context deliberative developer discipline empathy fairness focus futuristic harmony ideation inclusiveness individualization input intellection learner maximizer positivity relator responsibility restorative self-assurance significance strategic woo
so today i took the test and these are the five that were spit at me... i think they're in ranked order...
MY SIGNATURE THEMES:
Adaptability: People strong in the Adaptability theme prefer to "go with the flow." They tend to be "now" people who take things as they come and discover the future one day at a time.
Woo: People strong in the Woo theme love the challenge of meeting new people and winning them over. They derive satisfaction from breaking the ice and making a connection with another person.
Empathy: People strong in the Empathy theme can sense the feelings of other people by imagining themselves in others' lives or others' situations.
Positivity: People strong in the Positivity theme have an enthusiasm that is contagious. They are upbeat and can get others excited about what they are going to do.
Communication: People strong in the Communication theme generally find it easy to put their thoughts into words. They are good conversationalists and presenters.
personally, i'm really excited that one of my themes is "woo"... woo hoo!!!
i kind of had to laugh... we've been talking about empathy a lot in pastoral counseling... and i'd pretty much decided i am the most un-empathetic person in the whole world... AND... the positivity thing also made me laugh... sometimes i feel SO negative... but... (which means everything before that was negated...) when two of my friends from school saw the list, they pointed to those two characteristics and said, "that is so you... i can totally see that..." which made me really happy... sometimes i think i don't see what others can see... (and maybe sometimes i see stuff that isn't there?)
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